MAY 1, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 97/90; ADMIT


People of true stature admit it when they have made an innocent mistake.

Insecure people refuse to admit it when they have made an innocent mistake.

And, if the matter is not a mistake ...

And, if they get by with it this time ...

MAY 2, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 98/91; 2nd CHANCE


Today it seems appropriate to address a few events which can easily be attributed to a power beyond that of a mere mortal.

The decision which placed me on a collision course with the establishment, "those who are in control" was made in 1962. Although not literally one, it was in the nature of a new years resolution. Like virtually all such resolutions, as time passed, I strayed from it. It seemed that each time I would do so, the big guy, yes, the guy of infinite love, the all loving guy had a very sharp stick which had an incredible ability to find my derriere until I got back on the right path. So long as I stayed on the path, my life seemed to have harmony and direction; off the path, it was chaotic and dischordant. The chaos-discordant phenomena dominated the period immediately following my suspension from the practice of law, a time which was extremely painful for me. The sole, one and only, true social aspect of my life during that time was visitation with my children. From my perspective, pitifully too few visitations. I drank more than any other time during my life. In one of the frequent moments which, in hindsight, was nothing more than feeling sorry for myself, I realized that the suspension was nothing more than the confrontation with the establishment which I had known all along was inevitable. Rather than seeing it for the opportunity it really was, I had gone into a "poor me" mode and as a result, in reality, had actually wasted a lot of time. Once I simply accepted it as the burden I had been given to bear and hunkered down and got on with it, the change in my life was miraculous. Once again, my life had direction and harmony. More direction and harmony than ever before. This orders of magnitude improvement has occurred on at least two other occasions of a similar nature, but far and away the single greatest occurred January 25, 1999 with the start of the hunger-strike.

Without question, the single greatest fear I have had, to the point of being virtually the only true fear, is that I would not be up to the task. Many times I have felt I'm just not up to this or that at this point in time. This resulted in a huge guilt trip when the economy of the country went into the toilet a decade or so ago. It looked like those "this's and that's" which I hadn't been ready for had squandered the only time when what needed to be done could be done. We are strong again. We have a second chance. Actually, more correctly, I have a second chance. You have your first chance. I shall be eternally grateful for that second chance. You may not want to squander your first chance.

MAY 4, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 100/93; TRIPLE DIGIT


It is now approximately 11:55 p.m. EST on Tuesday, May 4th. This is the first opportunity I have had to post a Daily Message since posting the Sunday message.

To say things have been hectic is an understatement.

And to think I came within a hair's breadth on each of Saturday and Sunday of announcing that the message activity would expand to two messages per day!

With that prologue, today's message shall be short and to the point:

1. Today was the first triple digit day, the uno 100th. day of the hunger strike.

2. And they shall pay for that! Dearly!!

MAY 5, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 101/94; RACE AGAINST TIME


Response to the signage and handout activity has been vastly more successful than I had ever imagined it would be, and I believe it is a 100% certainty it could ultimately be successful. For this effort to be successful, the response must reach a critical mass.

It is a race against time.

However, I have never wanted, nor do I now want, this to be an emotionally driven issue.

I do want it to be a reason driven issue.

There is a difference between appealing to emotion, and noting the urgency of a matter.

The poor do not have access to government.

The politically incorrect do not have access to government.

The elite have access to government. We know elitism is fascism.

We also know relief has been wrongfully withheld in the instant matter for more than twenty years and that continued denial of relief shall certainly kill the victim. The hunger strike merely accelerates that which is otherwise inevitable.

This is a race against time.

There is a difference between appealing to emotion, and noting the urgency of a matter.

Your voice is needed loud, often, and immediately.

Remember the save a penny the first day, and then double the amount each day thereafter forumula? Calling/writing/emailing/faxing daily yourself and recruiting two others to do the same would guarantee a critical mass, wouldn't it.

This is a race against time.

There is a difference between appealing to emotion, and noting the urgency of a matter.

MAY 6, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 102/95; CLAIMS


On behalf of the PonyTail Institute for Change, the following claims are made:

1. Outing Facism Worldwide; and,

2. Identifying and proposing a solution for a significant flaw in the Democratic Process.

MAY 7, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 103/96; REWARD


A $500,000.00 reward shall be paid, from proceeds received from a settlement or damage award paid to me or my estate, for information which results in a felony conviction of a perpetrator, facilitator or collaborator.

TELEPHONE: 703 273 2044
email: pi4ckbd@erols.com

MAY 8, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 104/97; PRINCIPLE


NOTE: A CAVEAT HAS BEEN ADDED TO YESTERDAY'S REWARD

One of the more common questions asked is "Why don't I just go see a psychiatrist, and give "them" the one thing required for reinstatement?" (... provide substantial evidence ... overcome ... psychiatric problems), even though the court had expressly stated it was not qualified "to arrive at a diagnosis or prognosis", and that there had been no "medical testimony" - nor was there any other evidence.

It is a curious question, but nonetheless one of the more frequent ones.

1. As a matter of principle, it should never, ever be done.

MAY 9, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 105/98; ELITISM


It is time to develop more fully the meaning of elitism.

From the context within which it has been used, it clearly does not mean wealth per se, although many wealthy persons are in fact included in the particular class of elitism as we mean it.

We use elitism in a political sense and in the sense of being arbitrarily privileged, a privilege based on other than merit. The acquisition of wealth can be based on merit; historically, it frequently has not, ala the term robber barons.

The privilege we have referred to almost exclusively is that of "ACCESS" to government, and our complaint is really not that they have access, but rather that in reality they have it exclusively.

While virtually all wealthy people have access to government, not all avail themselves of that access; others use their access judiciously and charitably.

Elitism does not mean wealth per se in another sense. It includes classes which include many, even a majority, who very decidedly are not wealthy. Special interest groups they are called. They enjoy their arbitrary privileges because ELECTED politicians act not on the merit of matters, but rather on that which ensures their political survival.

We are technically a "Constitutional Democratic Republic". Many think of democracy as majority rule government, admittedly vastly superior to our standard of comparison syphilitic tyrant king, but not at all what our forefathers envisioned. Theoretically, it is vastly better than majority rule because in theory even minorities are equal and receive justice for all.

Until recently, historically, minorities have been minorities. Now, however, they are very significantly arbitrarily privileged because of their significance to the political survival of the elective process political system. Obviously, this Message is not designed to generate maximum political support, perhaps an unwise thing to do at this point in this activity, but to do otherwise would risk compromising the activity, the greater of the two evils.

MAY 10, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 106/99; REASON


Did I not say I wanted this issue to be reason driven?

The last two paragraphs of yesterday's Daily Message, the Sunday May 9th message, make the assertion that special interest groups inherently are arbitrarily privileged because of the need for survival of the political system.

It was specifically acknowledged that it was "politically unwise" to make those statements.

Political experts would tell you that the result of the above statements, without more, is to compound the original error. There shall be nothing further on that subject today.

Today, another subject shall be started and left unfinished.

The scientific method is a universally accepted problem solving methodology.

A key step in the method is definition of the problem. One can even argue that once the problem is truly defined, the problem is, in essence, solved.

That's all for today.

Did I not say I wanted this issue to be reason driven?

MAY 11, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 107/100; BEST & LAST


This Daily Message is addressed to ALL of those on the various Daily Message distribution lists who have a direct responsibility to grant the PonyTail relief, including but not limited to, Janet Reno; Robert Rubin; certain individuals of the Executive Branch of Government hierarchy from as low as the Chief of Staff's office on up, including individuals now retired or otherwise not presently a member of that hierarchy; certain members of the Department of Commerce from as low as the Commissioner of Patent and Trademarks on up, including individuals now retired or otherwise not presently a member of that hierarchy; all judges who joined in the so-called opinion of the supreme court of the state of minnesota by which I was UNLAWFULLY suspended from the practice of law; all members of the supreme court of the state of minnesota disciplinary organization who actively participated in the proceedings by which I was unlawfully suspended from the practice of law, including Warren Satre:

WHEREAS you have conspired to variously unlawfully suspend me from the practices of general law in the state of minnesota and patent law throughout the United States of America and to withhold the services of your offices in order to maintain that unlawful suspension in full force and effect;

WHEREAS the basic fundamental premise of the unlawful suspension is a fictitious, fabricated and concocted designer illness both peculiarly amenable to depriving me of the essential elements of life and otherwise totally inappropriate which has been operating to continually and constantly erode my life forces for not less than twenty years;

WHEREAS there has been a significant decline of my health over approximately the last ten years which has prompted me to contact various ones of you on numerous occasions to seek redress of my grievances which were specifically described in many of those instances as life-threatening conditions;

WHEREAS you have uniformly displayed, at a minimum, a cold, heartless, and reckless disregard for my life manifested by non feasance and malfeasance including overt attempts on my life; and,

WHEREAS you have uniformly displayed an indifference of, and contemptuous disregard for, the Constitution of the United States of America;

NOW, THEREFORE: it is self evident that a state of anarchy exists in the United States of America and by the inherent power vested in each and every citizen of the United States incident to exercising that most fundamental and basic instinctive right of self preservation, you and each of you are hereby formally charged with engaging in a conspiracy to commit murder.

Notwithstanding the foregoing, if before 12:00 midnight Thursday May 13th., 1999, any one of you offers to provide that which is commonly referred to as "state's evidence" deemed sufficient to conclusively implicate at least two persons in the aforesaid conspiracy, including individuals not specifically named or referred to above, I shall agree to request immunity for you from the appropriate prosecuting authority.

This is my best and last offer for immunity.

MAY 12, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 108/101; FRATRICIDE


FRATRICIDE: one that murders or kills his own brother or sister

Is not a society in which the bureaucracy murders or kills its own citizens a fratricidal society? And the evidence is overwhelming that the peculiarly unlawful suspension of the PonyTail is inconsistent with any legitimate legal purpose but highly effective as an agent for depriving the PonyTail of all means of securing that essential for survival. Fratricidally so. We are not talking abstract theory, are we!

But members of the society not engaged in controversial, confrontational activities don't have to worry, do they. The bureaucracy uses "smart bomb", surgical attacks so only those who "deserve" to be killed are at risk, don't they.

Naive you are if you think that.

Without reservation, qualification, or condition, the bureaucracy put virtually all citizens at risk in this very case, the PonyTail case.

To illustrate, simply note that the plain unvarnished facts of this case are that the PonyTail is the victim and the bureaucrats are the perpetrators, the PonyTail the good guy, and the bureaucrats the bad guys. They sought to reverse that. In doing so, they made it unequivocally clear that they don't give a damn about the rest of you. The only thing they care about is their own selfish agenda.

How have they tried to switch the PonyTail from being the good guy to the bad guy? By trying to provoke him to violence. Without reservation, qualification or condition, they have tried to provoke the PonyTail to violence. As God is my witness, and as one who may shortly meet his maker, I swear they have tried to provoke me to violence. There have been countless incidents of provocation. Patterns of provocation which evince a plan to exploit moments of greatest vulnerability. The second I resorted to violence, the PonyTail issue would cease to exist, the only issue would be the violence issue. But at what price to whom?

It is virtually impossible for me to wreak violence upon the perpetrators.

As God is my witness, and as one ...

More fratricidal than you thought, isn't it!

MAY 13, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 109/102; HS FACTS


The first 103 days of the hunger strike resulted in a 40 pound weight loss, 24% of the original bodyweight (164 pounds) on January 25th., the start of the hunger strike.

Each pound of loss is equal to three thousand five hundred (3500) calories, or a total caloric shortfall of 40 X 3500 = 140,000 calories less than that required to exactly maintain the original bodyweight. Over a period of 103 days that is a one thousand three hundred fifty nine (1359) calorie/day shortfall, roughly a 1400 calorie/day shortfall.

MAY 14, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 110/103; PRIORITIES


Increasingly management of time, energy and resources becomes more critical. Stated another way, prioritization is increasingly critical.

Today's Daily Message sets forth the four things which I believe would most likely bring the hunger strike to a favorable conclusion. It is from a message posted for someone who expressed a desire to help.

The four things which I believe are most likely to provide immediate relief are:

MAY 15, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 111/104; CRITICAL MASS


Does not this issue directly attack two political myths of this society:

MAY 16, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 112/105; PROGRESSION


Your prayers please.

Your prayers and thoughtful consideration please.

MAY 17, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 113/106; MOST IMPORTANT


Well folks, another big weekend!

And, the Daily Message Que is overflowing. One day last week produced 6 notes on the back of the layout proofs for the sign. Sunday was one of those days when I could hardly get through my shower without interrupting the chain of thoughts for a Daily Message, and two were outlined and added to the que before leaving for the mall.

So, which one gets the nod for today's Daily Message?

None of those. After I got to the site on Sunday, it seemed as though I was just swarmed with people willing to engage in meaningful exchanges, I had one during the basic process of setup, and a second while dotting the i's and crossing the t's of setup. Not much more than an hour into the activity, an exchange with two "international" men revealed they were Portuguese. An exchange earlier in the week with another international personage had suggested my view of fascism, the USA view was not necessarily the international view, that some in the international community, and indeed significant numbers in the case of Spain specifically (but the person relating this was not from Spain), feel fascism, although flawed, is less flawed than the democratic process. In response to my question, the men acknowledged Portugal was once fascist and I am quite sure they understood the question was not in any way accusative but rather from a perspective of my trying to elicit the international view of fascism. One of the Portuguese men felt quite strongly that fascism was evil, and that the people of Spain also felt that way contrary to what I had been told earlier in the week.

So much for trying to resolve the issue of the international view of fascism.

I do want to state for the benefit of the international recipients of the Daily Message the American View, but first the context:

MAY 18, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 114/107; JESSE nth.


YO JESSE!!!

If you in fact are aware of my attempts to get you to make the minnesota incumbents settle the issue before you took office, are you so sure now that would not have been a good idea?

All you would have had to have done was tell them to settle the matter or you would, pre-inauguration, call a press conference, tell the media that minnesota had done a grievous wrong long before you were elected, and that you would not be a party to that wrong. You and your term of office would have been free of the onus of this matter.

I don't have time to double check now but I'm sure I also mentioned that: 1) statutes of limitations certainly shall be tolled in this particular case; and, 2) that statutes of limitations do not even start to run in on-going matters.

YO ESTABLISHMENT ADVISORS OF/TO JESSE!!!

If you surrounded Jesse with a wall so that he is unaware of my attempts to make the minnesota incumbents settle the issue before he took office, are you now sure that was a wise thing to do?

And, if that is the case, are you sure continuing maintenance of that wall since his election ...

YO CITIZENS OF minnesota ...

MAY 19, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 115/108; ARE/ARE NOT


Generally, the definition of fascism as elitism is at least well if not very well received.

It is an effective mechanism for communicating that "they" are not what they are supposed to be.

It is an effective mechanism for communicating that "they" bring dishonor to this society.

It is an effective mechanism for communicating that "they" betray those who gave that last full measure.

They who are in control.

A very meaningful exchange with a WWII veteran at the 20th and Constitution site last week inspired this Daily Message. He saw Communists as the likely bad guys; there can be no doubt about my views re the threat of fascists.

Our conversation encompassed vastly more than that issue, but later as I thought about it, my mind focused on how our conversation had explored what they are much more than what they are not. I realized that while we differed as to what they are, and although we spent little time actually talking about it, we were in total agreement as to what they were not.

They are not those who bring honor and respect to this society.

They are not those who zealously guard, preserve and protect that for which so many have given that last full measure.

They who are in control.

MAY 20, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 116/109; TAKE HEED


Perpetrators, collaborators and facilitators (PCFs) take heed.

The lead story last night on virtually every news broadcast was the death of the Florida woman who won court approval to discontinue her life support system after having her spinal cord severed by a shot fired by her mother.

Florida prosecutors reportedly are going to prosecute the mother for murder.

PCFs, the Florida case is the PonyTail issue without the aggravating circumstances of the perpetrator having an opportunity, and obstinately, trucculently refusing to mitigate the injury. Indeed PCFs, you have arrogantly exacerbated rather than mitigated the injury. At this very minute you could mitigate the injury with a simple, four word declaratory sentence: "THE SUSPENSIONS ARE UNLAWFUL."

On Sunday at the 20th and Constitution site, a person argued that if I died, "they would win". My response: if I die, for the rest of their lives they shall be only one honest person away from serving hard time for murder one, the charge shall simply go from conspiracy to commit murder to murder one.

PCFs, take heed. It is not too late for you yet. Today is the 116th. day of the hunger strike. How much time do you think you have? PCFs, take heed.

The reward offered in the May 7th Daily Message still stands.

MAY 21, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 117/110; VALUE SYSTEM


Another tragedy.

There is too little information about the most recent for one to be able to comment intelligently about it other than to note that there are still far too many experts who fail to address the CAUSE of the problem.

Do not all of these tragedies include the following three causal factors:

MAY 22, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 118/111; MUST BE


Must be doing something right, was threatened yesterday.

MAY 23, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 119/112; LARGER SENSE


Our May 21st Daily Message offered for your consideration three specific causal factors (alienation, ready access to means for large scale violence, and lack of a deterrent for using violence) for the series of school-centric tragedies which this society has experienced over the last few years and posed the question of whether the true causal factor was not the value system of this society, a value system produced by the adults of the society.

It had been my intention to complete and distribute this Saturday evening as the Sunday Daily Message to make it as much an ecumenical message as possible but yesterday was sort of a reverse two-fer* and I was too exhausted last night to do that. It is done in that spirit today.

Again, this is not my area of specialty but I would like to offer a few thoughts in essentially laymen's terms which the experts can then either refute or translate into more precise terms as the case may be. This is another of those "too important not to" matters.

Concerning the first causal factor, much of the emphasis has been put on the alienation between the various factions; for example, the jocks and those who were especially religious.

Isn't the more significant alienation an alienation from the society per se?

And similarly, lack of deterrent does not mean lack of metal detectors, nor lack of monitors, etc., etc., but rather deterrent in the larger sense of moral restraint.

Does not this lack of restraint also evince an alienation from the society per se?

Again, let us let this thought process mature for awile.

* for the International readership, slang derived from the loss-leader marketing practice of offering two items for the price of one; two-fer thus means anything which has a double benefit; and a reverse two-fer - yesterday I had a double agenda.

MAY 24, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 120/113; IF


IF this is Democracy, give my share to someone else!

IF this is Democracy, PLEASE give my share to someone else!!

IF this is Democracy, PLEASE, GOD, PLEASE give my share to someone else!!!

MAY 25, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 121/114; ALIENATION


The Sunday Daily message made the case that the third causal factor, lack of deterrence, was in fact a species of alienation.

It also took the position that in placing the blame, we adults need look no further than ourselves, we are the ones responsible for the value system of this society.

I thought that an early Daily Message had included a reference to a discourse on juvenile delinquency which occurred in the 70's but a search of the database for "juvenile" came up empty handed.

In any event, as a breakfast club program chairman circa the 70's, I scheduled a PhD (I believe her first name was Gisella and I can not for the life of me remember her last name) who was at least locally (minnesota) recognized as an authority on juvenile delinquency. In our discussions she had confirmed that a major causal factor of juvenile delinquency was the dual standard of adults, the say one thing, but do another hypocrisy of adults.

We have no further to look than ourselves for the problem.

And, forget the grandiose solutions.

Look no further than the Mission Statement of the PonyTail Institue for Change:

MAY 26, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 122/115; SUBTLE


We started out as loyal subjects of the King, but after awhile we said enough of this already; threw a few crates of tea into the harbor; killed a few of them; got a few of ours killed; got a few mercenaries killed; got ourselves polarized, irreconcilably polarized in not a few instances I understand; got a few other countries who weren't all that hot about the King on our side; and, got ourselves a brand spanking new Constitution.

Made quite a fuss over that Constitution. Had one fellow say give me liberty or give me death. Have never heard anyone suggest he was saying anything other than the literal truth when he said it. Believe another fellow involved in the early stages of that Consitutional process thing say after they'd all literally signed on the dotted line to get rid of the King that they'd all better hang together, or they'd surely all hang alone. Pretty serious business it would seem.

Did anyone else pick up on the recent current administration mantra of "we must all hang together"? With all their media experience and skills it seemed inappropriate for the particular context within which the multiple source, simultaneous utterances were made. Somehow or other I associated it more with the "solid blue line" phenomena. When all the subtleties of the context within which the multiple source, simultaneous utterances were factored in, it definitely seemed like a calculated appeal to fear.

Was not the former use of the phrase more an appeal to reason than an appeal to fear? Was it not made to emphasize the strength of their convictions?

Subtle, but real distinctions!

And I have said numerous times I did not want the PonyTail Issue to be emotionally driven, but rather reason driven.

Is there not a difference between the emotions of fear and greed and a passion for liberty, due process, justice for all, basically a passion for our Constitutional rights? Is not this passion based on the reason that so many have put their lives on the line for the strength of their convictions.

Subtle, but real distinctions and yet at the same time so vastly different we readily recognize them as differences in kind rather than differences in degree.

MAY 27, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 123/116; VOID


On Monday, one exchange in particular seemed as though it were backsliding, it dwelt for some time on an issue which hadn't been raised in a long time.

Of course, every individual totally unaware of the issue is no different from the very first individual with whom I discussed the matter, but for some reason or other the "VOID" issue had not come up in a very long time, and the individual on Monday was persistent about pursuing the matter.

Whether the individual was in denial or was "one of them" desperately looking for some basis for justifying stonewalling by the attorney general I do not know.

I do know that void simply did not mean void to the individual.

The so-called decision which purports to suspend me from the practice of law is void. The so-called decision is unlawful "on its face".

Webster defines void as: "of no legal force or effect".

The concluding paragraph of a paper titled "VOID JUDICIAL DECISIONS" which I have routinely distributed to legal types, including the attorney general, follows:

MAY 28, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 124/117; DYNA


The material between the dashed lines was prepared and distributed in February of 1988.
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MAY 29, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 125/118; SPECIES HS


A few days ago the Daily Message included the statement:

MAY 30, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 126/119; WIN WIN


It is not uncommon for members of the religious community to share their views with me relative to what is important should the outcome of the hunger strike result in my death.

Recently one such individual seemed to be put at ease by my response to his observations about that eventuality that it was definitely a win win scenario, wasn't it, should it result in my death, I certainly would be in a better place than here!

MAY 31, 1999 HUNGER STRIKE DAY 127/120; HONOR


For me at least, it is foolish to try to improve on the words Lincoln chose to honor those who gave their lives on behalf of their country.

"That last full measure" says it all for me.

Whatever the words, however, they remain merely words unless our actions, individually and collectively as a society, are consistent with them.

The fight is irrevocably over for those who gave that last full measure.

The fight cannot be over for the rest of us until this society delivers that for which they thought they were fighting. Otherwise, the words, whatever they may be, are merely words.

Today, as I have done every memorial day since coming to this area in the mid 80's, I shall go to the Vietnam Memorial to pay my respects to the son of my first grade teacher.

As I have done for the past few years, I shall leave the memorial area before the start of the official ceremonies, a ceremony of merely words as I know all too well. They deserve better. They deserve to be truly honored.